I ended up taking the rest of April off because it appears I needed some rest. I’ve never encountered poker burn out before so I didn’t know what the signs were. But it looks like going from 15 hour weeks straight to 35+ hour weeks is a recipe for it!

Luckily I’m about to leave for WPT Montreal, so the timing works out okay. I’m probably just playing the 3k Main Event and then enjoying the city when I bust.

I’ve never been to Montreal before so I’m pretty excited! My favorite thing to do is eat, so I’m happily taking advice on awesome restaurants. Leave a comment or email me

I’ll post a trip report when I’m back. I’ll probably post tournament updates on Twitter, so follow me @courtiebee if you’re interested.

Title says it all. Hate for this blog to be all doom and gloom lately, but that’s how life has been. I really hate poker at this very moment.

Looked at my results and the week went badly as expected. I confirmed just got coolered all week because my EV is just as bad as my results. The days I felt like I was tilting for nothing weren’t just tilt for nothing because I confirmed lost heaps those days. Blah blah blah.

In other news, I felt good for the first time all week today. I spent like 11 hours in bed but at least it worked! Volume was also incredible late in the day today. I played an hour later than I usually do and had to decline fish at $200s to stop. I was just getting too tired and tilty for my own good, so I had to stop.

I’m glad this week is over. I lost over half my month’s profits in less than 700 games, and I felt sleep deprived the entire time. Pretty much nothing this past week went right in any facet of my life, so yeah, good riddance.

The sleeping problems continue. Melatonin didn’t help and I woke up several times during the night as usual. I’m not sure what to do at this point. I might have to buy a new bed, I guess?

I felt pretty bad today and probably shouldn’t have played poker, but I really wanted to. I’m trying to get as many hours in as possible this year and my inability to sleep is really hindering my progress.

I refrained from sitting regs today since I wasn’t feeling up to par and added $60s to get some softer games. I definitely made some mistakes today but I think I was still making enough money per hour to make it worth it.

I feel like today went badly overall where results are concerned and that I got coolered too many times to be profitable. Add in the mistakes I made due to being tired and I’m left crossing my fingers that I lost less than I think

This week has been pretty terrible. Maybe tomorrow will salvage it like last Saturday?

Well I didn’t sleep well. I ended up staying in bed 10 hours trying to make up for the fact that I woke up a million times during the night. Quality > quantity, but at least I felt well enough to play after I went for a walk this morning.

It felt like action was a little better today than the past week, but maybe that’s because I was sitting regs when I had nothing to do again.

I felt frustrated for most of the hours I played today. I don’t think I ran badly enough to have felt pissed off all day, so I guess lack of volume and lack of sleep contributed to the bad mood. I just felt like I got coolered a lot and that people had it at perfect times for a large fraction of the day.

I also feel like I was losing a lot of flips, but that could have very well been selective memory. I guess I’ll find out on Sunday when I look at my EV.

I played two hours less than usual because of the extra time I had to spend in bed today. I really want to play a full today tomorrow, so I’m gonna take some melatonin and hope that helps with the sleeping tonight. GL me.

I bought a new bed recently and I’ve been sleeping really badly on it ever since I got it. I bought a floor model which means I can’t exchange it, so I’m really hoping I get used to it soon.

I keep telling myself it’s the pillows I’m using and not the bed itself, so I keep buying new pillows to try to fix the problem. Now I have like $500 in pillows sitting on my bed each night. It’s really absurd. I just really don’t wanna have to buy a new bed

I woke up feeling really awful this past Monday so I didn’t play. Today I woke up feeling bad again, so I went back to sleep for an hour. I woke up and still felt unrested, so I went to the gym and had a work out. I had done this on Monday and it didn’t help, but it seemed to do the trick today. I ran a bunch of errands and then went home and played a half session. Action was okay and I think I ran pretty average. Maybe lost a bit, but it was nothing too annoying.

PLEASE GOOD SLEEP TONIGHT! ONE TIME DEALER!

I decided to play some MTTs today and it wasn’t very fun. I found them pretty boring and the entire time I just wanted to play some HU, so I stopped registering for them after I had 6 and switched back

I dunno if that means I am not gonna know what I am doing at all if I play the WPT donkament, haha. I mean obviously I know how to play poker, but there are definitely some things specific to MTTs that I have to work on. I’m gonna review the MTTs that I played today and see what I’m doing badly and go from there. I really don’t want to play another batch of MTTs before I go to Montreal, but I might have to

HU was awful today anyway. I played them for 3 hours today during times when the action is usually decent, and it was pretty bad. Even sitting the occasional reg wasn’t enough to get the number of games per hour anywhere close to okay. There’s just so many regs on these days. I’m hoping it changes soon but if it doesn’t, it probably means that there are gonna be many more reg games in my future.

I ran really hot yesterday, so I’m happy to report that the week ended on a positive note! Action was very slow again but I didn’t really lose, so it felt way better than the previous days in the week. It also shows that a lot of my tilt was from losing rather than just from slow action, which isn’t a good thing.

I took a look at the week and it was EXTREMELY swingy, which is probably part of the reason why it felt so bad. I was also running ~20 buy-ins below EV for most of it, which was probably the other reason. 20 isn’t a lot, but it was combined with many ups and downs and slow action, so it felt worse than it should have.

I made up a lot of the EV yesterday, which was really nice. I still ran below this past week, but it looks a lot better after yesterday.

I’m thinking about playing some MTTs this next week in preparation for WPT Montreal. It’s been a long time since I played any MTTs, so it’s probably a good idea to get back in the MTT mindset. To be honest, though, I really don’t want to play any online MTTs. I’m almost considering not playing WPT so that I don’t have to

If I do play them, I’ll probably just play a handful on PokerStars and Full Tilt one day this coming week or next.

This week has been truly frustrating. There’s just no other way to describe it. Volume has been the worst it’s been in a long time, and I am losing to almost everyone.

I have barely played any regs, so it’s just losing to fish over and over every day I play. They’re also frequently quitting after winning a bunch in a row, whether it’s two or four or six. The fact that they don’t even let me win one back before quitting has probably added up to a lot more in losses.

I’m really disappointed with how I’ve handled these bad days, but it’s been really hard for me. Losing all your games is one thing, but not being able to even accumulate volume to get out of the downswing just adds so much more.

I’m also disappointed with how long it’s been taking me to recover at night after a bad session. Typically I’ve always been able to bounce back pretty quickly after running bad, especially since I stopped looking at results on a daily basis. This week has just been miserable and depressing feeling.

I really don’t want to play poker tomorrow, but a day off isn’t going to help. In fact, I just took a day off yesterday. The only thing I can do is play as much as I can as soon as possible to get back on track. Really don’t want to, though, not gonna lie.

Today was, once again, extremely bad for volume. It was arguably worse than yesterday until later at night when it picked up a bit.

I think it picked up, at least. I can’t be sure that it was better than yesterday because today I finally added $60 lobbies when I didn’t have action. I only played 15% of my volume at $60s today, but I really would like to not have to play them again going forward.

The bad action combined with running bad made the day one of the least enjoyable days of poker in a long time. Running bad is always magnified when you have no games to play. There were so many one off games. No one was rematching, and it was just extremely frustrating.

Usually at the end of my sessions, I’ve decided to play my last $200 and then get off to eat some food. Lately, though, the $200 fish I’ve gotten has won a bunch in a row and continued to rematch presumably because he doesn’t lose.

In the past I’ve gotten extremely tilted by this. I’m hungry and tired at this point, and I get stuck at the computer playing a fish I can’t beat. If you read this blog regularly, I’m sure you’ll recall times when I’ve complained about losing 10+ in a row to someone at the end of the night.

When this happened yesterday, I quit the fish I was playing after 4 straight losses because I was extremely tired, hungry, and tilted. I was glad I quit after 4, but then I wished I would quit after 2 and decided to make an end-of-the-night stop loss of 2.

Today obviously it happened again: my last $200 was a fish that didn’t quit after winning. It just so happens, though, that a Full Tilt game fired because I forgot to unreg the lobbies there, so I got to two-table $200s. I lost 5 straight to the guy on PokerStars, and the guy on Full Tilt quit me after he won one.

So much for my stop loss, haha.

I decided to keep playing the guy on PokerStars because even after he won a bunch in a row, he didn’t quit after I won one back. In fact, he didn’t quit when he lost four back. After an hour, I finally won a few back and he quit me up just one. I’m pretty happy with this result and extremely glad I didn’t tilt my face off this time.

Once again, I really hope action gets better soon.